I realized yesterday that I still have a softer, kinder side.


I can't recall the last time that I this felt humane, positively concern and genuinely happy for somebody else other than me, myself and Mharlon.


All it was a simple good luck and encouragement I had given a colleague on her way to a job interview yesterday. Alright, probably not as simple as that coz I actually said:


"Good luck on your job interview! But, what I really mean is BEST of luck on your upcoming interview."


I was a bit surprised in spite of myself after saying those words. I sounded or I am genuinely sincere that I almost can't believe it. I mean I actually meant every single damn word. I even have my fingers crossed hidden behind my back. All I was thinking that time is that my officemate really deserves to find a better job. The least I could do is to give her some encouragements.


She must've sensed an earnest intention from yours truly that all it took from her was a sincere and genuine thanks as well to send my good vibes to the stratosphere.


And while I'm at it, feeling rather good about myself, I joked that she need not worry on that job interview coz she's got not only good luck but the best of luck from me. I was asking myself the whole time after that:


"Mharlon, is that you?"


On a normal day, Complicated Dude is this ever whining and always complaining, apathetic and cynical, and self - centered biatch everybody seems to hate. But that time, my guardian angels were probably working double overtime. I felt good on what I just did/said and I also felt like a totally different person after that.


I never had the urge to smile at everyone but yesterday I did just that. I smiled at almost everyone I bumped into, passed by on the streets on my way home. And seeing them (some were strangers) smiling back made me believe that "Joy is the only thing that doubles if you give it away." Unless they thought I'm a lunatic, the smiles on their faces proved one more thing - smile is contagious.


"Life sucks, so do I!"


-is my current pc's screensaver. A loser's screensaver, I know now. I better change my display settings. I don't feel that way anymore.


And I just found out the good news. That officemate I wished luck yesterday, she just filed her resignation letter today.