Yes, for the nth time, I still can’t get over this guy. After months of not seeing each other, Jim and I spend the night at his place last Tuesday. We sort of made up for the lost time, he would not even allow me to go home even if were in almost the same vicinity. I SMSd my sister that I have a deadline to beat and I won’t be coming home til morning. I had to stay over the night and tell Mom not to worry; all the time I’m only meters away from our house. I missed him so much that I readily jumped in the opportunity of being him with him.
 
The following day, Wednesday, he told me that he would be coming to Ortigas so that we can go to his place, again, together. I was with my bestfriend at the Strip wasting the hours away, and told him that I can wait for him. I thought that we wouldn’t be seeing each other soon. I already said ok when I realized that I still don’t know if he’s not committed or not. I hadn’t had the chance to ask him the day before; I just know that he’s done with his long distance lover, or so he says! Maybe this is just another one of his ploys when he needs to release those internal body heats. I suddenly decided not to go wait for him and just go home but Cecil, my bestfriend, is convincing me to give it a try and just wait for him. She decided to go so I went with her to wait for the bus. While waiting for the bus, I received a message that he’s already at our meeting place and he’s been waiting for at least 10 minutes. I just told him I’m accompanying a friend to get a ride. After 30 minutes of painstakingly standing for in the loading/unloading zone, Cecil decided to just take the train.
 
I was hoping to find an irritated Jim but he was there, smiling at me, he’s really cute this time, huh! I was about to deliver my apology for being late when he insisted we have dinner first. He’s really sweet! I think I’m beginning to fall for him again. This feeling sucks.
 
We went to his place and spent the next two hours talking, about us, his lovers, my lovers, work, everything. I’m glad we didn’t end up in bed this time. He told me that he’s really glad that we we’re able to talk again, seriously this time. And how sorry he is about the last time. It had been long over I said and I’ve already forgiven him a long time ago. I had to beg him to let me go home, my mother has been bugging me with questions about the night I didn’t go home.
 
Yesterday, he sent an SMS asking me if I can come to his place, since he will be the only one there as all those in their household is going to Laguna. He said that he cooked something for me, and that I should really go or else I will regret it, which was only a joke. I wonder what this guy is up to right now since he confessed before that he was a lousy cook. I went there, as expected, only to find out that all he has is pizza. He told me he just wanted to see me and he can’t think of any reason to convince me. I just smiled and kissed him, I don’t care about the pizza, which has ham and bacon toppings, eewww! I haven’t told him that I’m not eating pork and beef anymore but I that can certainly wait. That time I had a more important matter to attend to.