I'm blogging again.

Again - because I almost thought of giving this up altogether when Jim and I broke up. Stuck would have been my penultimate post that I wanted to appear on this page - the last one a sort of farewell post to all those that had bothered to read what I'm saying all these times.

But the supposed-to-be-last post doesn't sound quite right. It even morbidly sounded like a suicide note that I had to delete it. And knowing perfectly well that I may not able to stick with the decision to quit blogging anyways.

I had to move on. I should. I wanted to leave everything that reminds me of him behind - blog included. So much has been said and written about him in my blogs that my drafts always end up mentioning and/or talking about him.

I don't wanna talk about him anymore, don't wanna write about him either. But I realized I'm doing just the opposite right now. Guess I have to live with that for a while.

Well, I can't help it really. You might think that I am still bitter about what happened, but I'm not. I mean, I hope I'm not.

See, I lost interest in blogging when we broke up. I was too pre-occupied with coping up and recovery that thinking of the next post to publish is the last thing on my mind.

But what made me write again?

I'm happy, as simple as that. And yes, there's a new guy in my life right now. I don't wanna say that I'm in love [I'm not exactly sure if I am] or whatever but I have an entirely different view of things right now. I wanna do things rationally this time - not out of spite and not without thinking twice - letting fate and destiny takes me where it intended me to be. Will it be a happy ending for me this time?

Only time can tell...

For now, life - and blogging - goes on!