I hope this entry wouldn’t jinx my love life.

Yeah, that’s right. I have a new boyfriend.

After more or less than a month since I broke up with my last, I met this wonderful, sweet and lovable guy who I just couldn’t take my eyes off of. I myself was a bit surprised that I would be able to move on in so short a time. I mentioned him in my last post, actually. He asked if I could wait ‘til his ready. I did and now we’re officially US.

The reason I broke up with the guy before him is that I wanted to experience how it is to be single again. To have my own space and spending my time the way I wanted to without the need to explain to anybody. And to lessen the guilt every time I’m hooking up with other guys and hiding it from him.

But I never saw it coming – that I would be truthfully and willingly live the life of a faithful man, and forget about being single again as I planned. For the first time in history of my boring so-called life, I fully understood the need to be monogamous and loyal to your partner. That love is really enough to say no to a promise of an endless fuck with a game and available guy who probably doesn’t know any better.

Being faithful actually feels good. I sometimes ask myself why I cheated on the guys I loved before. I now realize that my fidelity issues had probably gotten in the way.

One of the reasons why I wasn’t actively blogging these past months is that I felt that everytime that I write something about prospective (and in-process) relationships, these relationships ended up in nothing. That I am somehow breaching this invisible confidentiality clause of saying things that needs to be confined between me and my partner.

I had this ‘theory’ that if I stopped blogging about my relationships, they would probably work. When I met my last ex-boyfriend, I applied this theory, but it still ends up in dust. So I guess, my theory is faux.

I mentioned to my boyfriend about this blog and he asked for the address. I told him that I’m not actively blogging now because of my work and that he might be disappointed and might not look at me the same way again. He did not insist but then again I really love him so I had written this primarily because of him, and for him to know the real me: past, present and future – hopefully with him.

Honey, this is my blog.