It was an ordinary day spent wasting the dead hours of early Sunday afternoon. Checking my mails, updating Friendster and Downelink accounts, clicking the buttons of JobsDb and JobStreet for possible future employers and checking updates on my blog.
Though the usually ignored Yahoo Messenger! on the desktop had been untouched for quite some time, I decided to log-in just to look if my friends, cousins and former officemates had bothered to send me even a smiley.
Nothing.
Just like it’s always been. It felt like ages ago when some friends and I had the grandest times of our lives creating fights in various chat rooms of YM. Thankfully, we had outgrown our war-freaking ways in favor of counter-strike.
I was about to disconnect when a certain cyberfriend’s profile blinked. Skyflakes* is online.
Skyflakes has always been my crush for as long as I can remember. Though we have yet to meet personally, I had been silently pursuing him to get his attention for the longest time - added him on my friendster, replying to his friendster’s bulletins and commenting on his blog. (Yes, he’s a blogger, too.) It even came to a point when I felt like I was stalking him. Good thing he remained clueless or was just ignoring me.
I was surprised that he had sent me a message. Actually, he had sent me three consecutive messages. I decided to flirt with him – see how good a chatter Skyflakes is.
I can say that he is a nice, polite and fun chat mate - not good for my standards. I expected to throw some naughty and flirtatious messages with him but was I ever wrong? It was a very light and engaging chat.
It became boring after a while, that I decided to spice it up a little. What if I tell him about my feelings towards him? Why not?
Complicateddude: I have a crush on you! :)It was dead air for the next minute. Any moment after I had sent that sinister message, I knew that our chat had come to the inevitable. I blew it - and lost a potential friend.
Thankfully, he did not send me expletives after that. In fact, he said that he was flattered learning that confession but was not quite sure if he’ll believe it or not. You see, he also reads my blog and has this impression that I don’t take guys seriously and that I just fool around with guys.
Me? Fool around with guys?
I asked him if I wasn’t that obvious because I really felt like I was. He only thought that I was just being friendly. He did not realize that I was being TOO friendly – and only then that he realized that it is possible that I really like him. He even said he likes me, too!
I sent him an SMS thanking him for the wonderful chat. He replied with his number and said that I call him if I have the time.
That night, I did. I felt like our time chatting was a bit short and I knew he feels the same. I somehow felt that the crush I had for him had developed into something deeper after the chat and the phone call. Developed into what exactly, I don’t know. All I know is that we’re talking on the phone til two in the morning - and it was also short.