Tonight's the first day on my new job. Got mixed feelings really as I anticipate what's in store for me today at RCBC. I just realized that I'm getting more and more excited (and nervous) as 2100 hr approaches.


A good friend and former colleague, Trace, who's also working in the same company, had advised me to prepare three OSI's (Other Significant Info) about myself that will be asked as we, the new batch, introduced ourselves. I have no idea what to say really but the thought of saying that I am gay popped in my head as I was talking to Trace.


Now, that is SIGNIFICANT!


But I'm pretty sure I won't resort to that tonight. Let them all guess as to what my real preference is, hahaha!


Seriously, my OSI's will include the following - that I am single but attached but uncommitted; that I don't eat pork and beef anymore; and that I'm a Harry Potter freak. I hope that will do.


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I also realized that I'm not in-love with CX, that I'm just in love with LOVE. I was just blinded by the physical attraction I had for him, I guess. Slowly, as I start to see the person behind the chinito eyes, dimples and cute smile - is an eighteen - year old brat that's as confused and lost as I am.


It's not yet over for us, though. We decided that an open relationship is the best possible set up we can have for now.


That being the case, I started seeing and going out with other guys lately. Trying to explore the waters for (other) possible catch. As they say, there's a lot of fish in the ocean and I won't mind if I have other options once CX decides that he's better off without me.


Harsh? Not really, I learned to accept that these do happen and that there's no other way but to deal with it. If only both of us can agree to be exclusive, and live up with it, things would have been more simple and less complicated. But hey, I'm really not complaining. I still enjoy our times together.


Got one question though:


Who would you choose?


The one who loves you or the one you love...