I already have a draft of my supposedly next post after Confessions. But certain events and a certain someone have been occupying my thoughts lately.


I knew this guy from this website, XY, to whom I was instantly attracted to. Chubby, innocent-looking and has chest hairs! I can't quite find one that will somehow pique my peculiar fancy. But there he was! I knew I had to know him more. I just had to. I made the first move which I rarely do. I deliberately smooth talk my way against his defenses coz he's really suspicious at first. But boy, oh boy! When he asked for my number, I know my proven tactics worked again for the nth time.


But my SMSs, I found out, were more lethal. He wasted no time telling me he likes me, even though we haven't met personally. I, on the other hand, kept dropping hints that the bed is the only place for him to be. Cocky as it may sound but I'm pretty aggressive when it comes to this aspect. After which he told me that he never will consent to a sex on the first date. Yeah, right! If he's into playing games, why not give him one, I thought.


Giving someone the cold shoulder is one of the most effective way of sending your point across. My messages were less friendly - no winks, no smileys and with least characters that I was able to use. Surely, one would noticed you're making the least effort when the replies you're giving were all "k". When he asked if he had said or did anything that might've offended me, I stopped texting him.


Though he still says hi from time to time, I already decided not to pursue him for I had other guys to deal with that time. I did not delete his number though.


This week, I suprised him with a rather friendly message and saying that I had been very busy at work. The reason why I'm not texting him that much. Besides, I really missed flirting with him. He thought that I decided to end our communication and that I don't wanna be friends with him anymore. Of course I said all the sweet words on the contrary. That same day when my name resurrected in his phone inbox, he told me that he's got a job already. That he's also working in Ortigas Center. What's more coincidental is that were both working in the same building, only floors away.


We finally decided to meet up after office hours that day. And man, was he cute or what? Innocent looking eyes, sweet nose and killer smile. But what really made me drool at him like a sleepy puppy were those lips. He's got to have the most kissable pink lips I ever laid my eyes on, I felt like salivating.


Like most eyeballs and meet ups, we were both shy and calculating at first. But fifteen minutes into our talk and were sharing private jokes already.


I like him for sure. And my instincts tells me that it's mutual. But I know he's still on his guards and was trying hard to hide his feelings. Too bad for him coz it's written all over his face. To make matters worse for him or me, I kept myself at a safe distance. No physical contact, not yet.


We went inside the Podium as he needs to use the john. While waiting for him outside, I tried to analyse what's the meet up was all about. I think he likes me but I could be wrong. As I was mulling over these thoughts, he's done. We then decided to stroll around the mall.


Something might have happened somewhere because he acted way differently after his trip to the john. He suddenly became too cozy and sweet. Brushing his hand against mine, leaning at my shoulders and whispering words in my ears. I had to muster all the self-control that I have not to give in to the signs he's throwing at me. I can't even hold his hand for he might think that I'm too fast, too aggressive. We agreed to have lunch together the following days.


Day number two is quite uneventful for he's back to his old self. Which is pretty fine coz I'm already having struggles inside my head.


The following day is definitely strike number three. We had a rather fast lunch of sandwiches and decided to hang out for a while to smoke. After our first cigarettes, he asked me if I wanted to join him in his car to take a nap for he's got a two-hour lunch break. Even if I had only an hour break, I joined him for I know that I will regret it had I not.


We're just there inside his car. Him napping and me texting my friends. I thought that he was sleeping but when I got a call for a job interview (my phone's on a silent mode so as not to disturb him) and needed a pen and paper so I can jot down notes, he immediately gave me the things I needed as if on cue. I know he was conscious and can't really sleep with my presence. I told him to just ignore me and do as he pleases.


I was a bit surprised at what he did after. He leaned on my shoulder and held my hand. He instructed me to recline my seat so that our bodies were level with each other. God knows how I had wanted that moment to happen. All I had to do was to seize the opportunity. He's in front of me for the taking. I let it pass. I don't want him to have the idea that I was taking advantage of him. And I don't mind a bit if I wait after some time.


But I was never good at temptations and I guess will never be. When he started playing with my ears, whispering sweet nothings, all my defenses and self-control vanished within nanoseconds. I looked at his eyes for anys sign of resistance but all I saw was dying anticipation. We just had to do the most natural thing we know we should do - we kissed!


It was short and sweet. But I definitely won't forget that moment. If I can have that moment freeze forever, I would certainly have it.


Now before any of you guys think that we're already a couple, we're not. I am pretty much aware of things as to why I'm not completely pursuing him at the moment. And I should really not get into dangerous waters if I want this to continue.


The deal is - he's already living-in with a guy but they're not (yet) committed. That my chances right now is definitely less than zilch. Part of me is arguing that if he's still entertaining me, he must be looking for something else - or something more. Maybe he found that something in me, or not. I really don't know. It's too risky for me to get more attached than I already am at the moment.