Just when you thought you got me all figured out...



Chinapaint

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A colleague forwarded this cool game and my results are as follows:

1. You have little interest in your financial investments. You are not driven by material wealth and prefer to see where destiny takes you.

I agree with this, I believe that less money, less problems.

2. You are bubbly and approachable. Unrestricted by the latest fashion trends, you buy clothes only when they look good on
you.

Bubbly? I guess. I buy clothes if I really like them, even if they have avant-garde cuts and designs. But my taste for clothes can change overnight, I have those that I already bought but had never taken the pain to use them after I lost interest.

3. You are aggressive in business, but tend to take the backseat when it comes to your personal life. You are more comfortable talking about work than relationships.

I think I had chosen the wrong color, ekkkkk!

4. You are a very practical person. It's more important to you that the things you own are useful, rather than nice to look at.

Not always true.

5. You are very sociable! You are the center of attention and have great stories to tell. But this often prevents from establishing deep relationships.

I have stories to tell, yes. But I am not sure if those who are forced to listen actually liked them. I hate being the center of attention because I blush when that happens. And its not a good thing for me.

6. You are very considerate. Friendship is the world to you, and you are friends with everyone. Be careful, as sometimes this works against you if you are too trusting.

Sometimes very, very considerate to the point of foolishness.



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Bisexuals and In – Betweens

Gays that do not fit under the category discreets and effeminates fall in this category. They are not as prim and proper as discreet gays nor as flamboyant and loud as effeminate gays. Their actuations always leave straight observers guessing as to what their preference really are. Apparent gay indicators are not as convincing to conclude that they are homosexuals but they are not as masculine as they could get or seems to be.

1. Bi – Straights – those who get sexual satisfaction from both sexes. Coital relationships with females are regarded as an entirely different and separate experience altogether as compared having sexual intimacies with fellow guys. Filipino jargons ‘silahis’ or ‘chickboys’ (translation: pwede sa chicks, pwede sa boys) aptly describes these gays though not politically correct per se. Bi – straights as differed from other bisexual gays in terms of getting fucked from behind. They definitely will not allow themselves to get penetrated in the ass and would take this as over-the-top. They use their dicks to fuck guys and girls alike but would not get exact favors from men. They end up choosing females in the long run, once adventurism and novelty run out.
2. Bi – curious – gays who have already experienced having sex (doing the penetration) with both men and women, but are looking for something more, anal sex. This is their only difference with bi-straights. Having sex with women or being fellated by gays is just a form of sexual satisfaction for them. Like bi-straights, they will eventually give up this lifestyle in favor of a more conventional sexual relationship with the opposite sex.
3. Bi – gays – they really dig men over women, but by sudden twist, they experienced what its like to fuck women, and liked it. They started getting aroused by both sexes and will continue doing so until such time they get tired of playing it in both fields. Eventually, they will still prefer guys to gals.
4. AC/DCs – versatility is the name of their game. Hetero males and females, gay males or females, it doesn’t matter. Nympho and sex addicts fall in this category.
5. Straight – acting effeminates – one look at their physical features and there’s no denying that they are gays. I am not sure if it has something to do with genetic framework, but they are uncanningly gay looking. Personally, these are the most bizarre kind you’ll ever meet. Just picture this scenario, macho – like walk and demeanor with hipsway movement, or deep baritoned voice turning into squeaks when surprised. Try surprising them with toy snakes or cockroaches and you’re in for a laughing fit. Best example, Butch Francisco.

Next... Being Top and Bottom



Author’s note: Due to sensitive nature of this blog, readers’ discretion is definitely advised. To best understand the message and what lies beneath the mind of a homosexual, sleazy and vulgar vernacular has been used. The use of four – letter words should not be taken into context but should be viewed only as mere expressions of the author and what the gay world is all about. Being the slut that I really am, all to say is:

Read at your own risk!

Conservative Catholics we Filipinos are, anything out of the typical mother, father and children structure of the basic unit of families is considered as abnormal and to the devout Catholics, immoral. Multiple wives and husbands and children out of wedlock were shunned out of society as if they were lepers. Homosexuals are not exempted which up to this day are either mocked or made fun of and were not taken seriously. In a typical machismo society, where having multiple wives, girlfriends and mistresses - is considered as a testimony to a male’s masculinity and macho image. Every man is expected to play out the role of a tough, strong and chauvinistic gigolo.

Nowadays however, with the proliferation and much – publicized success stories of gay fashion designers, Peralta, Salud and Moreno and among others, and iconic hairdressers Serrano and Reyes; Filipinos treatment of gays have somewhat changed. Though the stigma still exists in a basically homophobic Filipino society, gays today are accepted and recognized with more panache and taste today than decades ago.

What first comes to mind of the heterosexual Filipinos when gays are the topics of discussion is the image of the flamboyant, drag and queenly gay parloristas and make – up artists. Though gayness is written all over their faces and are most of the times are loud and screams like horny cats, they are not the only gays existing in the Filipino culture. To better look into the picture of gays and homos, I categorized them into two – extreme gays and in – betweens.

Both ends of the Spectrum

Extreme gays are divided into two, which are the:

1. Effeminate gays – one look at them, there’s no telling that they are definite gays. Effems, which they are fondly called, exudes the aura of a woman. They are the one who are born in a man’s body but with a heart of a woman. They may not dress like a woman, wear skirts or blouses, but their actuations and mannerisms are screaming indications that they are gays. The actions typical of effeminates are the hips sway movements, and either hand is always carrying either a fan or a handkerchief and the other one on the waist, which reminds me of the “beauty queen” pose every time I see one. They have also mastered the craft called “irap look” and can easily raised one or both eyebrows. They are the ones often laughed at and are mocked in our society and to the machismo Filipinos, are their main source of fun and entertainment. Examples of effeminate gays are the parloristas, fashion designers, talk show hosts and drag queens; and

2. Discreet Gays – you can never tell that they are gays. They look every inch a macho man, muscular body, good looks and the whole package. By choice they prefer to remain in the dark, or as some say in the closet, because of various reasons. Some belong to a conservative family and being gay is not tolerated. Most have reputations and image they are protecting. Some are even married to a woman and has kids. They are the discreetest of the discreets and you would never ever see them acting like that of effem gays. Discreet gays are mostly public officials, matinee idols, soldiers and policemen, professionals and gym dudes. So girls, beware of those “eligible bachelors” you drool your eyes over.


Next installment… in between gays.



Its been long overdue, but only this day that me and my former boss, Claire, who is also a dear friend, managed to have lunch together.

Back when we were still working in the same company, we were the usual lunch buddies. I don’t know why, but our officemates prefer to bring packed lunch than eat at the mall sometimes there’s only the two of us having lunch. Our office before is just beside Robinson’s Galleria and there’s also a bridge connecting our building to the mall itself and I really think that everyone should take advantage of this privilege.

Well, I’m not really the type who would stay in the office during breaks. The corporate surrounding suffocates me and I really need to go out during lunch. Period.

It was a rewarding tête-à-tête to say the least though we did not talk about something huge at lunch. Its just the usual “how are you”, “how are you doing” talk. Usual as it may seem, I am quite happy that I we to be friends after all. We’re really close friends even before that some of our officemates mistook it as favoritism. I can’t blame them, for I am really her favorite, because I’m the smartest! (Hahaha!) I have apprehensions whether we can really be good friends but I can clearly remember what she said when I left the company:

“We’ll be better friends, for there is no boss – staff relationship.” I can only agree.



Whims and Wins

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As my best friend and me were drinking away our mocha and choco fraps at Starbucks Galleria, I bumped into Raymond who is a good friend back at my previous company.

Its been ages since we last saw and updated each other regarding our lives – professionally and personally. Raymond has always been my confidant back at First Asia Mobile, our previous company, and had almost always there to chat to whenever I need a straight guy to confide to or just talk non – sense non – stop.

One of our favorite topics, aside from sex that is, is working at First Asia. Even when I’m still connected with the company, Ray and I often discuss our problems, complaints and whims working in that company. And half the day won’t be enough just enumerating our problems and rants. Sometimes we just tire ourselves with these thoughts to resignation.

I kinda expected that this would be the scenario again meeting him. I am not exactly surprised when he started ranting when I asked how he’s currently doing at First Asia. As always, we talked about how politicking is still the culprit behind the employees, him included, and me before, lack of morale. How employees trying to one up each other to get favors for themselves and why is it those who work below par seem to be getting the better end of the salary bargain. I can only agree with him. Those were the exact reasons why I’m not there anymore.

Though I really sympathize with him, I can’t help but say that he’s better off outside the company. He better look for opportunities outside rather than see himself corrupted by the system. I told him that my drive to resign before, aside from the unrewarding salary, is that I was afraid to become one of them, afraid to see myself going down the drain, professionally and socially. The thing about the company is, people always have something bad to say to whatever you do, how trivial it may be i.e. smoking. Where can you see people making issues about you taking your cigarette breaks? I maybe overreacting here but that’s the way I saw it, or still seeing it.

I really hoped that he will soon find a better company to work to. And we won’t be talking about First Asia anymore. I jokingly told him I now call the company, F@$%king Asia Mobile.



Early morning
I wake up,
there's a knock, knock, knock
on my door!

Sounds familiar?
Britney Spear's "Lucky"
Wish I am as lucky

Wanna sleep more
10 minutes
Mom says what for?

Don't be late today,
as if I had always been
Sorry, but Mr. Punctuality
is not in my dictionary.

Mother nags
and again she nags...
She doesn't get tired of these
Early morning rituals.

Office here I come
Nine in the morning
It hasn't started yet
But I want it over and done!

Computer monitor staring at me
Let's get working, yippee!
Work that emails, blogs and stuffs
The boss is coming, you better stop.

The battle has just started
and there's no turning back,
All I can do is
Wait for six o'clock!






I had moved on...

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I never thought that breaking up with someone would be that hard. I had never been in a serious relationship before so giving someone that “We’re over!” line was scary for me. Sure, its just like “Let’s get this done and over with.” thing but when you’re talking about probably hurting someone who had been so thoughtful and generous to you is not that easy. For two sleepless nights, I was figuring out how to break the news to Carl.

It started on the day I met D. My conversations with him are like hearing myself talking. His views on relationships, commitments and life are exactly what I had in mind when I am still enjoying my life being single. I guess my views on these things changed when I started feeling a little insecure and the need to have boyfriend or significant other has become somewhat of an obsession. Everywhere you look, there are couples snuggling, kissing, HHWW, or just spending time together. It seems as if you don't belong if you don't have a boyfriend. Thanks to my friends that everytime we see each other, all they could ask me is that if I already got one. And what's really pissing me off about being single is that there are a LOT of gay couples nowadays. I mean, if these gays can have boyfriends, I surely CAN also!

Then Carl came along, he offered a relationship and I readily jumped in, not knowing what's in store for me. I was in love. But now, I thought I was.

After my encounter with D, I resolved to end my so-called relationship with Carl. Its hard composing that SMS that will set me - and him - free. I was sad when I did, though I don't feel any regret in my heart. In fact, I felt that I was relieved of something which I can't exactly pinpoint what and I am actually happy. I feel like I was reborn from the ashes, like a phoenix! I had always been a free - spirited person, probably the reason why I hate being stereotyped, stocked up in box or just being told what I should do or otherwise.

Though, nothing came out of my encounter with D, relationship - wise, I am still very thankful to him. He helped me find myself back. He made me see the Marlon that I once was. I also realized how much I missed my old self. I can now understand when people say "There's no place like home". Certainly, there's none. WELCOME BACK, MARLON!!!



I hate it when the excitement and novelty of working in your current company suddenly manifests itself because of reasons that are mainly; asshole/jerk superior and colleagues, financially unrewarding salary or the fun about your work runs out. What to do? Click on your jobstreet and jobsdb accounts and browse for that company that you think will provide you professional advancement and growth and of course, a much, much better salary.

I just had an interview with a trading company here in Ortigas and I can't help but think that I have been entertaining offers through these interviews for so long that its high time that I publish my own ala-"Job Hunting 101 - Interviews" myself. When I answered that I am really a shy person when asked to describe myself, the interviewer would not believe and said its not apparent based on the way the interview had gone. I just said "I am used to this." But I'm getting ahead of myself here so I'd rather have it as my blogspot post for the moment. If you're an applicant for the moment who might chanced upon this blog, hope this could help.

Do's and Don'ts Before and During the Interview:

1. Do yourself a favor and pamper yourself before the interview. Have a new haircut, foot spa, manicure/pedicure or facial to feel good about yourself. Iron your favorite slacks, long-sleeved polo and necktie for guys and dress, skirts and even slacks also for you career - oriented gals out there. Don't come to inteviews looking as if you need a week long bath to make yourself presentable. Dirty fingernails for guys is a definite no-no.
2. Don't hold back your answers to the interviewer's questions just because you are afraid they won't like your answers or you think its not the answers they are waiting to hear. An honest and spontaneous answers to questions, however unconventional they may be, will earn you points for having your own ideas and you can confidently get your message across. Avoid monotonous rehearsed answers like that of beauty pageant questions.
3. Don't answer in a monotonous, boring and nervous tone, you will see the interviewer's yawnings and ho-hums faster than you could say 'I got it!'. If you're really nervous, take deep breaths to calm your nerves. Be natural in delivering your thoughts. Make hand gestures and facial expressions if necessary. But never overdo your gestures and expressions for it will divert the attention of the interviewer from what you are saying.
4. Do elaborate your answers to questions starting with "Describe your...", "How do you see..." and "How do you go about..." phrases. These questions are usually asked to test your spontaneity and how well you know what you're talking about. Do not answer in single sentence responses, letting the interviewer do all the talking.
5. As much as possible, dodge those questions that you feel are too personal or inappropriate with regards to the interview being conducted unless you had let it slip and your interviewer wants an elaboration. If asked if you have a boyfriend/girlfriend or what is the status of your current employer financially and you really don't feel talking about it, start your answer with "If you'll excuse me Ma'am/Sir,I cannot answer your question because (your reason/s)".
6. Do know what you're talking about and make sure its true and you can back it up with facts once challenged. I do not believe in "Sell yourself" notion in getting a job. I think it only works for Americans/Brits working environment. Don't allow yourself to be viewed as mere commodity and not as a personnel. Do not over-emphasize on your strengths and accomplishments to the point of being arrogant and know-it-all.
7. Do stood up for yourself and answer in a little, just a little sarcastic when being underestimated or undermined by the interviewer. This may also apply if there's a good chance you won't be getting that job for some reasons unknown to you why the interviewers suddenly cuts your answers off and the expression on her face is a scowl or a smirk. You may not get the job but at least you kept your dignity intact and if you can, irritate those pathetic losers! Kudos for giving them a dose of their own medicine.

Post - Interview 101

1. I've read this in Jobstreet.com, which says that as a courtesy, send a thank you note or e-mail to the inteviewer. I did this one time and I was actually hired! An excerpt from the 'thank you' email I made below:

"Thank you for considering me worthy to be given that job interview and
as a potential candiate for the job."


2. Keep your communication lines open for possible update from the company you applied. Always have ample amount of battery hours if you're using mobile. If you had given your landline number, inform your household that the company where you just had an interview might be calling anytime and tell them to get the message for you when you're out of the residence.

3. Don't forget to give thanks to everyone in the company not just the one who interviewed you but also the receptionist or front desk people. You might be working with them in the future and establishing an early rapport is not a bad idea.

This might not be the perfect tips one can have regarding job interviews. But with my experience, it actually worked for me, and definitely - can work for you as well! Happy job hunting, hehehe!


33 THINGS ABOUT ME

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I have seen this numerous times at friendster. An officemate forwarded this thru email. Just thought to fill this up to...... (whispering) to kill office time, hehehe!!!

Want to know me...............read this................

1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
Pisces

2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
Single but goes out with LOTS of guys, hahaha!

3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
I wish it was D...

4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE PERSON YOU LOVE/D?
yes, it took me almost two years to fully recover

5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED SUiCiDAL?
if I am the only homo sapien left on this earth, something like the movie "Planet of the Apes"

6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
im not into morbid thoughts

7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
none, they're both boring

8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY?
cute and idiot, you can have them as your show puppies for being cute and you can easily manipulate them (its more of cute and gullible)

9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR BF/GF/CRUSH?
i recently realized there's no such thing as 'stable relationship' i live one day at a time. if i am in a relationship right now, that would be as unstable as you can imagine. i am a natural flirt, fickle - minded and has moods swings like that of the stock market

10. YOU`D EXPECT A TEXT MESSAGE USUALLY FROM:
guy of the moment, this time Carl

11. HAVE A BEST FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE GENDER? WHO?
Cecille, since college days

12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
guy - hunting

13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
if i don't like the person, i bore him/her to death

14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
very simple actually, a date by the beach at sunset while proposing feelings to each other

15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
no, i am apathetic about those things

16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
yes, i hope not again.

17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN? WITH LOVE???
probably...

18. EVER HATED ANYONE/THING LiKE HELL?
rats

19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
no, good riddance.

20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
anxious

21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
always

22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
sometimes though not intentionally but by accident

23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
is there such a thing?

24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
what goes around, comes around...

25. HAVE YOU EVER DOUBTED THAT SOMETiMES?
no, its the rule of Karma

26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
no, never will

27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?


28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN YOUR LiFE?
family is the most important thing

29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
this is the most stupidest question: how would you know when you're actually sleeping? have it recorded?

30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
yes, especially when I don't sleep enough

31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
once a day, all day after gimik, all nighters day.

32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
no, wish I had more

33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
i am perfectly imperfect and perfectly fine with that.



In less than 15 days, the 15th president of the republic will, to put it more appropriately, SHOULD be declared. But at the current rate the counting of votes is going in Congress, it seems that the board of canvassers should work double time in order to proclaim the REAL president elect: FPJ or GMA?

I voted for GMA and I would really like to see Her Excellency taking oath by June 30. It is a sad fact that the opposition party is doing all they can to prevent this scenario. I can't help but think and ask myself:

"What has gotten into their (the opposition) pathetic minds by saying that the winner is no less than FPJ who, as the opposition says represents the VOX POPULI?"

I almost laugh my head off everytime I see interviews with Senators(?) Sotto and Angara coming to Poe's defense. It is as if not obvious why they're doing this. I can't even post whats on my mind. Just thinking about it makes me wanna puke.

And why am I so dead set into believing that GMA is the real winner? Here are the reasons:

1. GMA has the blessings of the top two religious organizations Iglesia ni Cristo and El Shaddai, which are known to give unanimous vote as what their leaders dictate;
2. FPJ should have gotten another running mate instead of Loren Legarda who is very much identified with Arroyo's camp before. The reason for this is that Legarda is among those who rally for the ousting of former leader Estrada during the Impeachment and the now infamous Edsa II. Erap loyalists who are supposed to be the key supporters of FPJ did not take this move of FPJ as favorable to their idol;
3. FPJ's much publicized show of temperament (esp. with Media) did not earn him pogi points with the middle and upper classes;
4. GMA has a strong and formidable (though in times divided) political machinery. Add this to the fact that former presidents Ramos and Aquino were there to back her up;
5. FPJ's lovechild with former starlet Ana Marin did not go very well with moralists, catholic organizations and women activists. Even Susan Roces' outburst of emotion during the height of election backstabbing and mud slinging did not earn sympathy of voters but only shows that actors will be actors even in real life; and
6. FPJ's refusal to join presidential debate which I believe is a win-win situation for GMA, who is well-schooled to say the least against a high school drop-out.

This is not an all-inclusive list. It would take one htm page to probably enumerate why GMA is the real winner and Poe, a sorry loser!



Found this quiz c/o quizailla and what have I got? Hmmn, I miss kissing D! :-(

dominant
You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!


What kind of kiss are you?
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Nerdslut

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Is there such a thing? Will I look like a cute nerd with specs on?

nerdslut
Nerdslut


What's your sexual appeal?
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Almost But Not Quite

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I almost found the one but not quite!

Having nothing to do today, I decided to check out my former hanging out place for looking guys. I don't necessarily intended to meet guys this day since I already have one but my legs are itching to go places and not to stay at home all day.

For the first two hours, I just contented myself in checking out the scene and looking or I should say rating the guys at the place that time. I find some cuties but not necessarily worthy of my second glance. Most are old matron gays obviously looking for young blood, which I guessed to fill their thirst for fresh meat, hehehe!

As I was checking out, one guy caught my attention. Let's call him D. I fill you in later why. Anyways, this guy is sort of suplado so I did not consider flirting with him rather I decided to just wait for the others to flirt with and pursue me. I ended up entertaining two guys who are not necessarily my type but so as not to waste my time being too choosy I exchanged a word or two with them. Later as the conversation went to asking of contact info, I immediately excused myself. I did not even give my real name just in case they turned out to be stalkers.

As I was sitting alone just killing time, the guy that has caught my attention earlier is actually checking me out. I flirted quite obviously and in no time I had the guy with me, all mine!

I learned that he is one of us, meaning he is also gay but the discreet type, which explains why I am naming him "D". I was really attracted to him and I noticed that the feeling is mutual. Out of nowhere, we suddenly found ourselves kissing each other. It started from just mere smack on the cheeks and lips to the point where we are french kisssing each other without care to those that were watching us. We are really so into each other that we almost made it out. Thank heavens that we still have an ounce of self control left or we would have scandalized the place. Talk about being discreet!

D is a conversant person. He seems to have a say or two about almost everything. He is not a dull companion either. In between kisses we fill each other's some personal info and work related topics. We have a lot in common, both licensed professionals, both afraid of commitment and are both part-Japanese.

He confessed to be a true-green La Salista. And believed that Ateneans were mere second rate compared to them. When I told him that I actually do have Atenista friends, he suspected that I am also an Atenean to which I honestly told him I am not. I am a true blooded PUPian, I told him and he told me he had a hint earlier by telling me good accountants usually come from my alma mater.

I was so smithen with his charms that I found myself opening up a little too close for comfort. I can't help it if the one embracing and kissing me is actually MY TYPE! He is the perfect persona of my guy as etched in my mind all these years. Chubby and chinito, I don't know why but I really had a penchant for chubby and chinito guys. I was like doing all the moves so that we can finally hook up that I lied about having a boyfriend.

Which has given me another dillema. I realized that I am not really in love with my present boyfriend but rather I was only in love with LOVE! That is having someone caring for me. Checking what I am doing as I wake up in the morning till I go to bed at night. I really want to end this relationship but I am dreading the day that I have to when that time comes. I know I have to do it the soonest possible time but it is really hard breaking someone's heart who has been very good to you from the start. I am already hearing the song "Break it to me gently" in my mind and I can't help but feel guilty. I guess my conscience is nagging me.

Another thing is that D will be migrating to Florida by August to work and live there for good. He told me that if we ever hook up that would be for only two months. I told him that I am ok for anything as long as I would not be dictated to what I should and should not do, the major reason why I hate being committed to someone. We are very much alike with regards to commitment that I can almost predict what's going on in his mind. I hate to say it but that would be our first and last encounter. I really know cause I am like that! The most that I can expect for us is only f%@k buddies and that would be like wishing for the stars and the moon!

I think sometimes life is unfair, and this one is definitely one of those times. :-(



I had the most tiring, stressful and longest three days of my life!

It started last June 12th, I decided to go to work to aid in the closing of the company's May financial statements. Considering it is a holiday and a Saturday at that, I almost can't believe myself sitting in front of my computer and actually working! I had never been this absorbed ever since I left my last company. But back then, I had no choice but work my ass off. Now I think that I have an option, which is not to extend working hours and pushing myself to the limit.

But last Saturday, I timed in at 9:18 am and left at 9:53 pm. I also did report on the 13th, Sunday from 11:47 am to 7:56 pm. And today, I clocked in at 9:02 and I't still here in the office unwinding by writing this post. That is three days straight of rendering OT! I usually render one OT for a month and now I am over-quota.

I guess my old self is re-surfacing again. I can't say that this is the real me because I am naturally a lazy, laid back kind of person. My old self meaning that I easily get caught up with new and exciting challenges. What's so challenging and exciting about my work? Well, aside from staring at numbers and figures all day long and your vocabulary mainly consists of balance, debits, credits, adjustments, accruals - is that there is an unexplainable feeling of accomplishment. I think whenever I am able to balance something, whether financials or schedules, I am actually reaping four years of serious, difficult and now-you-pass-it-now-you-don't acconting studies.

They say that we, CPAs are a rare breed. I don't want to be stereotyped but that is really true. We are trained to be very meticulous, sometimes even to the last .01 centavos of unbalanced figure. We don't stop until all balances actually balanced. Accounting have so many ironic words. It seems that we oftentimes use the word balance for figures that almost always have discrepancies. An income statement usually presents a net loss, which in my three years of working as accountant, I have yet to work in a company that reported a net income for even a monthly period!

Well, this field is demanding, not physically but mentally. Sometimes I think if I had taken up the right course for me. Would I'd been happier if I only took other course instead of accounting? I know this is not right time to ask myself this question, nor there will be a right time for such. There's no use crying over spilled milk. As what most people would say, I guess I would only "Make the best out of it!" I hope I can and I really, really hope that I AM!


Top 10 Favorite Songs

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Watching MTV show, Top 10 Favorite videos, I got to thinking " Hey, I can do better than that!" Most artists almost always have Nirvana's "Smells Like Teen Spirit" or Jimi Hendrix's or Arethat Franklin for black artists'. It seems that they thought of the most popular sold out singles of past artists and have them as their favorites so that fans of these artists will be converted to their fan base as well. I have loads of favorite videos as well, but if you really listen closely to the songs and ignore the video, all you get is junk.

In no particular order, these are my TOP TEN FAVORITE SONGS:

1. TIME OF YOUR LIFE (Greenday)
2. RUNNING (No Doubt)
3. DOWN WITH THE SICKNESS (Disturbed)
4. LEAVE YOU FAR BEHIND (Lunatic Calm)
5. IT'S OVER NOW (Neve)
6. FOOLISH (Ashanti)
7. YOU DON'T LOVE ME ANYMORE (Weird Al Yankovick)
8. POWER OF GOODBYE (Madonna)
9. PURPLE (Slapshock)
10. CAVANAUGH PARK (Something Corporate)

I certainly have more than ten songs that I really, absolutely love, love, love! But these ten are the bomb! Believe!



Angela Visser won the title in 1989 not 1986 as previously posted.



Carl,

You came into my life at the most unexpected time, when I never thought that love do exist. You made me believe that love is worth giving a try. That all the hardships and failures of past relationships will be redeemed by giving my heart another chance for happinesss.

Though I may not be worthy of your love, still, you allowed yourself to be with me. You said you never been into this kind of relationship before and I am honored that you decided to try it with me. I don't wanna get hurt, but you told me that to love unconditionally is the most rewarding thing a person can ever feel. You taught me and still teaching me what real love is as we spend more time with each other as days go by. Love that is not based on what you can get but instead on what you can give.

Inside my head, there's still worry and uncertainty looming just ahead the horizon. Maybe because I am still afraid that same thing will happen to me like my previous tries with having relationships; lust, love or otherwise. I told you I am not perfect and I can be such a pain in the neck and you're idea of a good partner may never fit into the picture I have about myself. This is me! And I thank you from the deepest part of my heart and soul for allowing me to be me and loving me despite. For that, I cannnot thank you enough.

To you I pledge my not my undying love but myself. I give you the real me; inside and out, then, now and tomorrow, my best and my worst. I cannot assure you of a perfect relationship, a perfect partner and perfect times when you're with me but I want you to know that I had never felt and anyone for that matter, had made me as happy and complete and whole my entire life. Your words are the cure to my aching heart. Your presence is almost cathartic when I am thinking of giving up. Mere thoughts of me and you together makes me wanna go on on this journey called life.

These words may mean something now, but tomorrow may or may not be the same as today. Right now, all I want to say is:

I LOVE YOU!



Who would have thought Ms. Australia would win?

Jennifer Hawkins' grace and confidence during the final's night was beyond words. With her supermodel looks and catwalk skills, Jennifer won the judges' hearts and votes. Miss USA, Shandi Finnessey was 1st runner-up, who seems like a walking promotion for plastic surgery. Her facial features are too perfect to be true. But she definitely has the most beautiful body. Well toned and perfectly sculptured.

Watching the annual Miss Universe for almost twenty years, I haven't seen as much Latinas as with this year's pageant. We Have Puerto Rico (2nd runner-up), Paraguay (3rd runner up), Costa Rica, Ecuador, Colombia, Chile and Mexico. Among these señoritas, only Miss Paraguay deserves to place. All the others were simply forgettable. Puerto Rico has a very prominent nose which made her look like a Pelican. Kudos for Miss Ecuador as the host candidate but she should not be really there with her titanic jaws and front teeth but thanks to gown choice and crowd support which almost made up for her low facial beauty superiority. Two black women made the final cut, Trinidad and Tobago (4th runner-up), who is simply stunning and articulate, and Angola, the only African delegate who made it to the elite fifteen finalists.



And we have candidates from Switzerland, Norway, Jamaica and India rounding up the list. Miss Norway was way way better when she joined the Miss World 2002. She has too much make up which doesn't go really well with her perfect caucasian features. Wrong choice of gown didn't help either. Two much has been said about Miss Switzerland on the internet for having multi -ethnic features, but for me she is too plain-faced to be one of the finalist. Jamaica deserves to be there she is one my favorite among the fifteen for having the perfect heart-shaped face and expressive eyes. And India? She is too small for a beauty queen. Didn't even look exceptional which would really made up for her lack of altitude. As they say, "beauty is in the eyes of the beholder", but this is what I think. I am not a beauty pageant guru but I would like to think that I know what's "beautiful" when I see one.

Was I disappointed not seeing a Venezuelan candidate in the group of final contenders for the crown? Ever since I can remember watching Miss Universe, it is almost (only this year) always to have a delegate from this so-called "beauty factory of the world" fairing well in the Miss Universe. What have gone wrong? I would sure like to know.

Another favorite who didn't make it was Miss Aruba. Zizi Lee, who was 1st runner-up in Miss World 2001, was snobbed this year. Surely, she was the this years' biggest a-Miss.

Jennifer puts an end to the long - time drought for blondes in winning the most elusive universal crown. The last time a blonde won the title is way back in 1986 when Angela Visser of Holland (now The Netherlands). Could it be a trend for blondes winning in the international beauty pageant scene? Just last year, Rosanna Davison of Ireland was proclaimed Miss World 2003.

All in all, Australia winning this year is the only salvation for a very questionable and unpredictable year. I would surely like to see girls of better "quality" and "diversity" in the coming years.

To Jennifer Hawkins, congratulations!


Nagpa-Rebond Ka?

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It's been ages since me and my bestfriend, Paulo, bonded with each other. Though we constantly text, call and see each other, we can't seem to find the most convenient time when we can update each other on hours and hours end. It is either that I am too busy or he is always at Antipolo with his new found friends. Its not that I am jealous or overprotective but I wish that Paulo would always be there at my begging.

However last May 28-30, we had three days and two nights of drinking and smoking, watching gay porn movies, and eating our experimental recipes. Needless to say, we both got drunk, horny as hell and gluttoned, too bad I had an allergic reaction with my experimental ika tepanyaki with pusit lumot we bought at Robinsons Place Dasma (right now, my legs are still itching).

Over beer, we updated each other about everything that happened to both of us since the last time we talked. As always, the topics were sex, boys, sex, boys, sex and ... boys!

Did I just say we talked about boys? (Don't freak out just yet, Pau!) Nah, we don't talked about boys.

Ok, I must admit, about 10% of the time we talked about those pathetic, easily-manipulatable (what?) and overly arrogant creatures known to mankind as boys. We only talked about Francis, his Dexter, my Dexter, Ricky, Aris, Bong, Borgs and others we can barely remember the names or had never wanted to know what their names were in the first place.

For Paulo, that would be his last hurrah of being a bum, cause come June 1st, he will be back to school in a care-giver's class. For moi, it would have been the long overdue break I had been wanting ever since I embarked in my so-called professional career.



The first night had the two of us drinking and talking and drinking and talking till 5:00 in the morning. I can't remember who dozed off first but I woke up at around 10:00 AM because of the sunlight peeping through the curtains. I don't usually sleep with the lights on so its a sure no-no for me during sleep. I got up and prepared our breakfast. By noon, we decided to go to the mall in our day clothes, without taking our baths (hehehe), but still very charming and beautiful. (Thats what we like to think, anyways). We had the grandest time buying the stuff we need for the next two days. Ingredients of our so-called recipes, alcohol, cigarettes and COMB. I cursed him the night before for having no hair comb or brush in the house.

After lunch, I almost bribed Paulo in checking out the cool waters of the pool. He had changed his mind earlier and insisted that I can go if I want and he can still watch me. Huh? I can't imagine myself swimming alone for I can't really swim. I don't have problems being IN the pool cause I am basically tall and the deepest part of the pool is only five feet. Needless to say, he agreed to swim with me or else I would scandalize the neighborhood.

At Sunday morning, we biked our ways alternately around the village. Paulo, himself a long - distance walker (he's not into walk-athon but of other sort of long distance walking) had walked most of the times and me on the mountain bike. We finished the tour at around 1 in the afternoon and had our late lunch/afternoon snack. Because of the amount of burnt up calories we sweat out during the trip, we decided to check out the pool again.

T'was a blast to say the least. The sad part is that I will be getting back to work and re-enter the so-called corporate jungle (where the animals are!) not to mention my sunburns and allergies. We decided we will be going back at the 11th of June with some of our friends but I just found out yesterday that he HAS classes. Too bad!


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